Let's tally up all the holiday gatherings that took place at separate locations and times.
- Pre-Christmas shopping with my mom, to celebrate my first day of "retirement."
- Christmas eve with my husband (since he had to work the holiday).
- Christmas morning with my paternal grandparents.
- Christmas day with my immediate family.
- Christmas late night with my husband.
- Christmas with my family and maternal grandparents.
- Christmas with husband's family and friends.
- Christmas with husband and my family.
- New year's eve party (which was still decorated as a Doctor Who/Christmas party).
- Jan 1st birthday at my house.
- (Next week: birthday visit from my brother, party for my last day of work, birthday visit to my parents' house and a drive-by gifting at friend's house.)
The Christmas puzzle was really hard this year!
I am amazed that it doesn't feel like I've left my job yet.
I think I've only spent 3 days out of 14 without seeing family or friends, and those days have been filled to the brim with preparing for holiday gatherings. I'm still sending work-related emails and updating work documents in spare moments, as well as researching for my impending Etsy store. I also haven't been able to symbolically burn my work-countdown chain because of all the darn Spare the Air days, so it is still there, symbolically taunting me. Where'd that paper shredder go?
A surprisingly large amount of people who know I'm now free are popping up asking for my time. I really appreciate the desire to hang out (especially since my social life has been severely neglected), but the things people are asking for are things I need to do in my own life first before I can help out. As rude as it sounds I gotta be a little selfish here: I've spent the past 3 years draining myself to the bone keeping other people happy and suppressing my own needs, and I am completely burnt out.
I still have hives and all the other lovely medical issues from that stressful period which means my blood levels of cortisol are still too high... I am kind of using the hives' intensity as a gauge for how recovered I am. Just a little break first. Starting January 13th after the festivities have died down, it's time to enjoy a rare and treasured short period of zero responsibilities/deep relaxation/erasing the sleep debt, and sleep is coming so easily these days. I promise I'll emerge from my hermitty cocoon as a social butterfly. Or a social bat... I'm a little nocturnal.
How was your vacation, if you got one?
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